The Ballad Of Arthur Quixote

(with apologies to Don Quixote)

I've grown too weak to cope with this world
Or is it that I've never actually tried?
All that I can recollect in my short time here
Is that I've spent much too long trying to hide (and I don't mind)

From rational though and critical thinking
It's just too easy to numb the pain of being alive
And let the rest of the world do the thinking for me
So that I can focus on remaining blind (and I don't mind)

Blind to everything around me because thinking is for fools
Better to be spoon-fed my ideals and convictions
Brainwashing is underrated, keep feeding me lies
Just keep it black and white and don't clutter me with distinctions (I don't mind)

Are you ready for your hero?
Are you ready for your hero?
Are you ready for my ego?

So the time has finally come for me to fight for what's right.
Who cares if I'm right, 'cause I've got a right
To stand on my pedestal and point to the sky
And become the moral compass you've always denied

All for love of the Empire!

This Hero's Conquest of mine is a good fight,
Only because I said so, and I'm never wrong
And I can feel the world slowly changing for the better
With my patriotic four AM songs

All for love of the Empire!

Watch me as I don my self-righteous cape,
Stained with blood, cocaine, and glue
To champion a kingdom I know nothing about,
Only to defend what they've fed me as true (I don't mind)

I waiver no more; my path golden bricks
From the delusions I insist I must follow
It matters not that I still suck the teat
Of the complacent, the ignorant, and the shallow (I don't mind)

Do not dare to oppose me
I shall speak in tongues where truths are but whores
And your own feeble words meant to question me
Will be construed as an act of domestic war

Are you threatened yet?
Are you threatened yet?

As I strike you down with my ox-blooded boots
While insisting that my love for you is pure
With compassion, I shall hold you at knife-point
Until you learn that my facts are your cure

Are you threatened yet?
Are you threatened yet?

Now is the time...
Now is the time!

I've thrown down my gauntlet as a challenge
And I'm calling you out for your evil deeds
If you cannot agree with my self-righteousness
I will love you from afar as my sworn enemy

All for love of the Empire!

On my island of truth I'd rather you drown
I demand that you respect the sacrifices I've made
Once I thrust my righteous sword into your neck
I'll walk past my pedestal and spit on your grave

All for love of the Empire!

Identity Crisis

Pathetic little thing
Even you have no clue who in the hell you really are
Self-esteem permanently scarred.

High on the throne
Everyone else has the problem, certainly not you
You’re too busy stroking the ego you’ve fueled

Simply being there for you is impossible
Which version of you am I friends with today?
You’re content with leading your own identity astray.

As you pull yourself around
One fanatical obsession after the next
Ignore the wake you leave behind and the lives you have wrecked.

Forgotten Justice

Loretta Lewis
Ernestine Patterson
Kristin Lopez
Whitnei Dubois
Laconia Brown
Crystal Zeno
Brittney Gary
Necole Guillory
Keoshia Felix

Were they not the darling children of your hipster scene?
When they went missing did you simply forget to care?
Where was your outrage? How about your sympathy?
Didn’t see you plastering "MISSING" signs anywhere.

Blatant selective justice has never been more obvious.
As we revel in complacency, their killers still stand tall.
No closure for their loved ones or the community.
Not that it really matters to you after all.

So they led dangerous lifestyles on the fringe of right and wrong.
So they didn’t have the “looks” or the popularity.
Does that condemn them to a lack of simple sympathy?
Does that condemn them to your lack of utter empathy?

Condemned To The Shadows

Condemned to the shadows
For who I am inside
Didn’t ask to be so different
Why should I have to hide

A fear of what comes next
If I reveal what I’m about
Too hard to keep it locked up inside
Yet shunned if I come out

Why is acceptance so hard to achieve?
For something as simple as what I am and believe
What I feel as right is refused or denied
Never your equal, no matter how I try

Kawakami

Sound of disaster filling the air

Rest in peace
Kawakami

Cries and loss filling the air

Rest in peace
Kawakami

Destruction and madness filling the air

Rest in peace
Kawakami

Haven't We Learned?

Do you even care
That thousands point at you every second of the day
Deliverers of death
For generations yet to come with a poison here to stay
A button does it all
War pigs never change and it’s only gotten worse
As it was before
Sound off the alarm and be ready with the hearse

This is our reality
Harbinger of death
Awaiting Armageddon
Take your final breath

Are they so blind to repeat the past?
How can they deny the world of a future?

Thirty-thousand strong
And they’re pointed at you
A deadly game of chess
What’s a pawn to do?

Are they so blind to repeat the past?
How can they deny the world of a future?

Over & Over

Resorting to violence, but that’s nothing new
Means to an end, who cares for the truth?
You’d keep on fighting ‘til the world burns to death
But you don’t even care… you don’t even care

Over and over
Wars built on lies
Over and over
You just can’t stop…
When will you realize?

Creating new conflicts to play your war games
Bigger and better ways to lay waste
Brainwash your masses to join in the cause
Imprison anyone who thinks your policies are flawed

Over and over
Wars built on lies
Over and over
We’ve got to make it stop…
When will you realize?

Over and over and over and over...

Violence, death, living hell
Nothing left but remnants of humanity’s shell
Armageddon, final breath
Watching the destruction and awaiting your own death

Over and over
Wars built on lies
Over and over
It’s finally got to stop…
When will you realize?

Small Minds

Small minds
Get left behind
When reason and logic
Are thrown aside

Vomiting empty slogans
That border cliche
If that’s all you’ve got
Stay the hell away

You don't have to agree,
Just think for yourself.

Open your mind or get left behind.
Open your mind or get left behind.

Discourse and debate
The only way to affect
The change you so desire
With any respect

Childish tantrums
Get you nowhere fast
With no appreciation
That’ll ever last

You don't have to agree,
Just think for yourself.

Open your mind or get left behind.
Open your mind or get left behind.

Damnation Alley

Arrival of the beast
And the equalizing feast
The maker’s fist a gavel
Works of man unraveled

99 miles of hatred
Slowly getting wasted
Landscape deteriorating
Tired of all this waiting

Bereft of any compassion
Hopelessness in action

Survey the aftermath
Futility of habitat
Search for the familiar
Destruction front and center

Uselessness sets in
Nowhere to begin
Onward to rebuild
Worthless dreams fulfilled

Bereft of any compassion
The self-righteous preach inaction

Never Enough

They dangle the carrot since we’re out the womb
And we keep reaching for it til the day we’re entombed
The more you get your hands on it, the more you feel you need
We’re all pathetic fools for giving into greed

Never enough

Strips of worthless paper, presidential ink Consumes your feeble mind ‘til you no longer think
Prioritized and worshipped over all else in life
The cause and the source of most your strife

Never enough

You are the commodity, you’ve swallowed the bait
Hooked onto their drug, there is no escape
You are the commodity, you’ve swallowed the bait
Hooked onto their drug, and now it's too late

Never enough

Time Is A Thief

What in the hell have we finally done?
Time itself has splintered what we thought was one.
Dust has gradually settled and days have slowed dow
Need to finally stand back and take a look around

Time is the enemy not you and me
As we continue burying friends and family
Anger is so easily misused and misplaced
And friendships are so easily forgotten and erased

Pissed at the lack of change, pissed at the lack of rage
Became an apathetic weapon, became middle-aged
More pissed than ever but don’t know what to do
It happened to me, don’t let it happen to you...

Forests Of Madness

Sprawling heights above me
And an endless maze below
Intertwined illusions
This path is all I know

Undulating creatures
Writhing in their greed
Slithering uncontrollably
Slaves to their disease

Lost amidst the darkness
Claustrophobic fears
Nervous skin is crawling
And I’m reduced to tears

How did I find myself here
In this bleak, abysmal place
Nothing more do I want
Than to see it all ablaze

Delictum Gravius

Demon spawn among the church
Frocked and preaching from your perch

Liar, bigot, holy hypocrite
Liar, bigot, back to earth, you’re full of shit

Pedophile roaming free
Protected by the Holy See

Liar, bigot, holy hypocrite
Liar, bigot, back to earth, you’re full of shit

Preying on children behind closed doors
Blessed yet rotten to the core

Liar, bigot, holy fucking hypocrite
Liar, bigot, back to earth, you’re full of shit

Blind In One Eye

Cloaked…

Like a thief in the night

The victim is always you,

The victim can only be you.

Lurk…

Always three steps behind

Aim, steady and true,

Before you know it, you’re through.

Blood…

All that remains

River of life running cold

Nothing left to behold

Bones…

From dust to dust

Your fate was always foretold

No future left to unfold

Nothing but a flicker

In the grand scheme of things

Pile on the myths

To counter the sting

Of a worthless existence

With too much misery

To realize the beauty

That’s so hard to see

For the short time we’re here

Must put beliefs aside

To see the natural beauty

Right before our eyes

And love it for all that

It’s worth while we’re here

And not confuse beauty

For reverence and fear

Servitude & Sedition

Freedom to fight in an unjust war.

Freedom to abuse and pillage the poor.

Freedom to slave on the labor you’ve hated.

Freedom to suffer what society’s created.

Fuel for the fire

Fuel for the fire

Freedom to blend in and be part of the flock.

Freedom to punch in and out of the clock.

Freedom to swallow the bitter pill of complacency.

Freedom to drink the poison of mediocrity.

Fuel for the fire

Fuel for the fire

Freedom to give in when you’re tired of the fight.

Freedom to limits on all of your rights.

Freedom to turn away from change in the making.

Freedom to blend in to the scene you’re faking.

Fuel for the fire
Fuel for the fire

In Vein

Can’t cope – with the world that you’re in so you

Give in – to your demon within and you

Cave in – to the numbness again

And you’re gone…

Helpless

Mindless

Heartless

In pain…

Wake up – welcome the pain of

Reality – things never change in this

Cycle – of numbness and pain

And regret…

Helpless

Mindless

Heartless

Insane…

Withdrawals – icepicks at dawn and you

Can’t shake – hair of the dog and you

Hooked on – the junk that you’re on

Can’t let go…

Helpless

Mindless

Heartless

In vein…

Summer

Nothing moves
Nothing breaths
Dying planet
Dying trees

Oppressive heat
Crushing breath
Smothering life
Stench of death

Cracks in the earth
Ruptured crust
Flesh turns to ashes
Dust to dust

Summer
Summer
Endless
Endless Summer

Waiting for the rain
To wash it all away
Rejuvenation
Live another day

Night has passed
Rising sun
Endless summer
Life goes on

Summer

Summer
Endless
Endless Summer

Machine

I'm a machine

Built for suffering

Wage slave

Til the day that I die

I’m a machine

Built for one thing

Made to work

And I don’t know why

Am I man or machine

Am I man or machine

Am I man or machine

Or something in between?

Wasted all my life
Trying to follow your stupid rules.
Tired of the arrogance
Of idiots and fools.

Wasteland Of Opportunity

Punch in on the clock and tick your precious life away

Slaving over nothing while you grind your bones to dust

Work for the machine that steals away your days

Blood left on the table to contribute to the rust

Eating at your livelihood and carving out your soul

Morning into night, all the fucking same

Kept under their thumbs, no hope to reach your goals

Another lifeless pawn in their corporate fucking game

Wasteland…

The bottom of the chain is where it all gets done

The suits they don’t forget it and they keep you all in line

You strive to climb the ladder but that battles never won

Eat away your hopes and dreams so they can save a dime

They look at you like meat, a piece of human trash

Thumb their nose at you because they think you aren’t worth shit

Empty fucking promises and hopes that never last

Laughing to the bank while you suffer in your pit

Wasteland…

Living a life of mediocrity

Seeing through their lies and their own hypocrisy

Drowning in a trapped majority

No chance of moving out of your hopeless dead-end street

Wallowing in mediocrity

Seeing through their lies and their own hypocrisy

In a wasteland of opportunity

American Ethnic Cleansing

Once proud and free autonomous nations

Left to exposure, disease, and starvation

Herded like cattle, part of the plan

All this for nothing but more stolen lands

Concentration camps, huddled in fear

Nowhere else to go – but we can’t stay here

American Ethnic Cleansing

Exiled at gunpoint, forced to walk the trail

Militia ready to mow them down, a mad living hell

Goods left to rot and homes left to burn

To leave it all behind and never return

Never-ending path, a thousand miles of death

March under orders, moving on with nothing left

American Ethnic Cleansing

Proud Display Of Ignorance

Selfish insecurities

Perpetuate your mind’s disease

Proud display of ignorance

Victim of your arrogance

Homophobic asshole

Racist scum

Sexist pig

Just another one of the fascist, ignorant clones

How’d you foster all this hate?

Why’d you let it rule your fate?

Look at what your hate incites

No respect for human rights

Homophobic asshole

Racist scum

Sexist pig

Just another one of the fascist, ignorant clones

Lines

Like sheep led to slaughter without a clue

Born into madness, what can you do

Take your place in hell, move on down the line…

Forced into labor and you don’t know why

Born into madness, submit or die

Take your place in hell, move on down the line…

Where is your future, straight to your grave

Born into madness, exist enslaved

Take your place in hell, move on down the line…

(We Are) Legion

Crippled and broken, licking the wounds

Suffocating progress etched in the dirt

Vengeance and fate all in due time

Ritual abuse, death and rebirth

Arise

Arise

Sunlight on scars, a new day will dawn

Lying in wait for the settling of dust

Starting anew on the remains of the old

Rising above from the kingdom of rust

Arise

Arise

A crumbling failure, the empire is dead…

Arise

Nature’s revenge, take back what’s ours

Splintering the plain with a new found thirst

Skyward once more, heirs to the filth

One then many, a legion unearthed

Arise
Arise
A crumbling failure, the empire is dead…
Arise

Virtue Of The Vicious

Brainwashed to trust

In pointless divisions

And stereotypes

That inflame derision

Pathetic excuses

For invisible walls

And for millions of sheeple

Who answer the call

To pledge an allegiance

Without a clue

Of an empire’s end

That’s long overdue

Cheering a flag

You know little about

With nothing constructive

To back up your shouts *

Patriotism

Virtue of the vicious +

They point fingers at you

If you think any different

Last refuge of the scoundrels #

Last refuge of the sons of bitches

Last refuge of the scoundrels

Last refuge of the sons of bitches

* Paraphrasing HG Wells, “Future In America”

+ Attributed to Oscan Wilde

# Samuel Johnson, “The Life Of Samuel Johnson”

Bottle Of Oblivion

Drowning in the madness from the world outside my door

No wonder I’m so wasted and passed out on the floor

Bottle of oblivion… escape!

Too much at times to handle the world I see today

I can only escape reality and drink my life away

Bottle of oblivion… escape!

I’m tired of running helpless in a fucked society

I drink to dull my vision to forget all that I see

Bottle of oblivion… escape!

Inject / Infect

Is there no end to your mindless greed?
Consumption taking its raging toll
Draining her blood for all you need
Mother Earth herself will haunt your soul

Inject the earth, infect the earth.

Poison your host to fuel your life
And start your wars and drive your economy
Rape the planet for all it’s worth
For the land itself, YOU are the enemy

Inject the earth, infect the earth.

The mighty dollar is all you see
Mainline acids to get your fix
No excuse for poisoned minds
Same old lies and politricks.

Inject the earth, infect the earth.

Apocalypse

Oneafter another your fairy tale prophecies have failed to materialize.

And one after another you’ve failed to heed the warnings that you’ve routinely dismissed as inconsequential.

Andas you await your beloved self-righteous Armageddon, you’re so patheticallyoblivious to the fact that end times are indeed here, not because of the willof god, but as a direct result of your own shortsighted greed.
Andas the world finally crumbles around us, you’ll think that your savior hasarrived to deliver paradise as promised.

But it is not some almighty deity responsible for the end of the world…it is you, and you, and you!

Thereare no angels waiting…Thereis no paradise…Yourgod can’t help you now…
ONLYDEATH IS REAL.

Lifting death’s black veilFor all the world to seeEnd the age in fireAnd destroy humanity

Apocalypse
Will the next war be the last…Who the fuck-all will be left?Eschaton be damnedWe’ll all be greeting death

Apocalypse

No use for your repentance
Your gods are not to blame
We’ve done it to ourselves
Now welcome to the flames

Apocalypse

A Beginning

Greetings.  I am here to document the journey that is “Absence öf Youth”